9 fucking months

Hey ? So its 20!!! 9 months w MA. ( lol jk its over) can someone tell me how the fuck to move on??? He doesnt even remember!!!! I miss the first month anny he gave me chocolate....take me back to 20 february....... Only Allah knows how i feel rn. I dont want to have feelings anymore.I dont want to care anymore.Do you know how much its hurts me when walk by with ur fucking ugly gf infront me?? YOU ACT LIKE I FCKING DIDNT EXIST THERE, You know i still love you??????????? You promised me you never leave me............what is this shit.I re - read our convo.Its start from "aku,kau' and the you say you start love me...Kill me now.Why are ou doung this to me.............why? Why the fuck you asking for couple if you didnt love me???? why the fuck that you asking for couple if you choose her instead of me??? WHY? One ques ; WHY HER?   You put me through all this shits and i still love you????? ( i love you even more) Whyyy oh whyyy. I fcking cried everynight lah bodo. Im tired ok. I just hate youuuuuuuuuuuuu. But i know i cant. el oh el. I cant forget when everything is so messed up.When everyone blaming me for ruin ur relay ( eventhough i didnt know whats going on) and can you imagine? ur leaving me just like that....ur fcking give up on me lah pukimak. Its just a WEEK since we break up and you already have someone else.WOW just WOW.im done.



                                                                           xoxo ,

                                                                                    Girl that wish she doesnt even have feelings.

Too weak to move on

Um hiiii..? Its been a loooooooooong time i did not update this private blog.Busy with my studies and etc.So yeaaah.Um i miss him.You guys know who right? Yup MA. I miss the way he say he love me , i miss the way he looked at me , i mii the way he say he miss me , i miss the way he smiled , i miss the we meet , i miss the way he talkes , i miss the he smell. I miss everything about him.And , i know.  He doesnt even think of me.He hates me now ;) Its great.Very great. He doesnt look at me anymore.Everything Changes.I cant accept this.Its hurts me.

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